Incubation

Like this little egg here between the legs of this Macaroni Penguin, the past 6-7 months for me have been a time of periodic incubation. I've been really serious about hiding out, about being kind of selfish with my time and energy. I think the new job, new home, new singledom, DK breaking up, Nose Tales for four months... all of those things were big transitions/happenings all going on at once, and it was how I handled the situation.

Most recently, I've gotton on board with ZJU for our first Horror-Fest going up in August. I was going to direct, but stepped back at the last minute. This caused some consternation between me and ZJ, but we had a long heart to heart tonight as I apologized and we just talked about life and stuff going on.

After the phone call, I got to thinking about my lengthy incubation process, this period I've been kind of stingy with my energy. I do this when I'm stressed out, I pull in like a snail into its shell... but what if I were to explode outwards instead?

I've spent the rest of the night considering this (while working on the jigsaw)... and I feel like maybe I've wasted some time here by not being totally present and holding back. It is time to burst forth! Time to spread my energetic wealth!