I Actually Learned Something From TV

Okay. So I really don't watch TV. Up until the new year, the only hold-outs I still had were The People's Court and The Simpsons. I realized once summer started that I was kind of over The People's Court and a couple months ago, I realized that The Simpsons just wasn't funny anymore.

So my ginormous TV was used solely for video games and movies. And I think it's hilarious that Firefox recognizes "ginormous" as a word. Weird.

Aaaanyway, recently, the American version of The Office has appeared on instant watch on Netflix. I have yet to really watch that show, though I've seen an episode here and there and I really do love the British verison of the show... so I figured I would give this show a shot.

In the past week or so, I've watched seasons 1 and 2. I've realized something: The Office is comprised of two things... 1) Michael Scott being a douchebag and 2) Jim and Pam.

I love Jim and Pam. I mean, this is most certainly the thing that keeps bringing people back to watch... their relationship is not only very real, but it's fucking great. It is classic.

I watched the finale of season 2 today - the episode where Jim confesses his love for Pam. I was jumping up and down in my apartment... clapping, laughing and crying. So great.

Later on, I was riding my bike to a housewarming party and I realized... that's what I want. That is what I deserve. A relationship with a woman who is my best friend. A woman who wants to talk to me on a regular basis, a woman who enjoys my company, a woman who deeply and truly cares about me.

See, over the past several months, I have had my crushes, my interests in different women, but the issue is that all of them have been emotionally unavailable. All of them have been aloof and, honestly, not the greatest of friends. But I've been okay with that because it's all I think I deserve.

But tonight, as I was riding to Sarah and Chris' place, thinking about the ending of season 2, I realized that NO, I do deserve to be involved with a woman who wants to spend time with me, that I deserve to spend time with a woman who sees me as her best friend, her confidant. I deserve to have a true love in my life.

I do.

I want a Jim/Pam relationship. I want something that is real, something that is based on two people truly loving one another and enjoying each others' company. I fucking deserve it.

Yeah. So, that's what I learned from TV today. Huh. Never woulda guessed that would happen.