Let's start at the beginning:
I woke up at 7:30AM after a late-ish night with friend Mary, playing Guitar Hero, drinking, and talking life. I got all my junk together for the long day ahead and got dressed in my fancy suit to head down to Santa Monica and take part in a new Elders sketch that Steve and Dirk were filming. I got there a little after 9:30, and had a fantastic morning/early afternoon helping move equipment, taking still photos, talking to amazing people, reading, eating, acting, (I did, maybe, drink too much soda), oh yeah, and having onion rings stuffed into my suitcase:
Anyway, we wrapped up around 4:30 or so, I helped clean up, and then headed over to Dockweiler were Danny and the summer camp peeps were meeting up for the summer bonfire. The beach was fantastic... I laid out my big pink blanket, put on a load of sunscreen, jumped into the water for a bit (a short bit as I quickly realized the water was a thick green with bright green bubbles floating on the top... ick), I wrote in my journal, read some more, ate some great food, there was a beautiful sunset:
After this, it was time to head to World On Wheels for the monthly Roller Disco, baby!
"Freestyle's kickin' in the house tonight
Move your body from left to right
To all you freaks, don't stop the rock
That's freestyle speakin' and you know I'm right"
Oh, that's good roller skating music right there. A few songs later, they rolled out the "Double Dutch Bus" and even though my thighs were killing me and I was getting rink fever again, I had to skate on.
1 o'clock hit... Meryle was up on the observation deck, I went to join her. I was truly done: sitting on the floor, holding on to the fence, watching people skate by as she danced to "Heart Of Glass" beside me. Blondie ended and then the damn DJ threw "Around The World" on. *sigh* I couldn't resist.
Shortly thereafter, Meryle left, I talked to some girls having a birthday, and then I stood on the deck, watching everyone skate. It was a thin night compared to the last few weeks, but it's also fun to watch. While up there, listening to Prince sing "Let's Go Crazy", alternating between watching the skaters and Xanadu again playing on the wall, I was hit by a sudden and powerful knowledge:
I am an artist. I never felt totally comfortable labeling myself as an actor, it felt fake, not quite right... but now, I look at myself, my work, and what I'm doing, where I'm going, and I finally see myself. I am an artist. I create. I inspire. And I will be making money with my craft soon, it is my Path. I was also comforted with the knowledge that the things I desire most will come to me. It is simply fact.
You know, I go through my ups and downs, but over the past several months, the downs have been farther apart and less severe. I feel like now when I'm down, even though I accept it, I can see the big picture, and that gives me solace. Today was definitely not one of those times, though... today was a fucking revelation.
And just to reiterate how blessed I am and how impossible it is for me to lose, when I got home, there was no parking (of course), and I had a car full of junk from this day... so I temporarily parked in the alleyway and made a couple trips up to my pad, and when I finished and came down to find a parking space, one opened up directly in front of me, before I even started my car. Just like that. Yeah, that's how it goes in my life these days: pretty smoothly.
However, I did somehow lose my belt. *shrug* Oh well, it was cheap and falling apart anyway. Boom!
1 o'clock hit... Meryle was up on the observation deck, I went to join her. I was truly done: sitting on the floor, holding on to the fence, watching people skate by as she danced to "Heart Of Glass" beside me. Blondie ended and then the damn DJ threw "Around The World" on. *sigh* I couldn't resist.
Shortly thereafter, Meryle left, I talked to some girls having a birthday, and then I stood on the deck, watching everyone skate. It was a thin night compared to the last few weeks, but it's also fun to watch. While up there, listening to Prince sing "Let's Go Crazy", alternating between watching the skaters and Xanadu again playing on the wall, I was hit by a sudden and powerful knowledge:
I am an artist. I never felt totally comfortable labeling myself as an actor, it felt fake, not quite right... but now, I look at myself, my work, and what I'm doing, where I'm going, and I finally see myself. I am an artist. I create. I inspire. And I will be making money with my craft soon, it is my Path. I was also comforted with the knowledge that the things I desire most will come to me. It is simply fact.
You know, I go through my ups and downs, but over the past several months, the downs have been farther apart and less severe. I feel like now when I'm down, even though I accept it, I can see the big picture, and that gives me solace. Today was definitely not one of those times, though... today was a fucking revelation.
And just to reiterate how blessed I am and how impossible it is for me to lose, when I got home, there was no parking (of course), and I had a car full of junk from this day... so I temporarily parked in the alleyway and made a couple trips up to my pad, and when I finished and came down to find a parking space, one opened up directly in front of me, before I even started my car. Just like that. Yeah, that's how it goes in my life these days: pretty smoothly.
However, I did somehow lose my belt. *shrug* Oh well, it was cheap and falling apart anyway. Boom!

1 comments:
The belt is found.
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